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Sunday, August 06, 2006 @ 11:52 AM
feelings. mood. emotions it's strange isn't it one moment you can be shouting out with joy and the next its not even appropriate to smile my brother scared the living hell out of me first thing in the morning nonetheless i saw him going down the stairs then like 2minutes later i heard him scream there was something about the way he screamed that made my heart skipped a beat i thought my father fainted or something then he pounded up the stairs i could see he was holding something in his hands it was white and surprisingly tiny a closer look and i saw it had a tail eew "what is that!?" "my chinchilla gave birth!!" i swear his eyes were sparkling "and i didn't even know she was pregnant!" now why does this seem all too familiar oh now i remember i didn't realise my hamster was pregnant too until 5 piglet like creatures were found in the cage i guess stupidity runs in the family i heard my mum cry today at first i thought i was hearing things but when i went out of my room there she was crying as she tried to iron my uniform i asked her what happened when she didn't say anything i just walked away i went to sit with my brother in the chinchilla room he didn't seem a tad bothered when i told him mum was crying so we just sat there and looked at the newborn my mum came down a few minutes later and asked my brother if he wants to visit ah gong in hospital my brother shook his head sometimes i just want to slap him my mum said something(i could sense bitterness in her tone) i couldn't hear now why didn't she ask me the same question i wondered then i realised it was redundant to ask me i was expected to be there for her i seem to be the only one she can turn to in situations as such but somehow i think that's not enough for her i can't feel her pain but i do understand it yet i cannot do anything about it someday that bastard will pay |
