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	Saturday, January 30, 2010 @ 4:27 PM the one thing that i tried to hold on to of all the things i have believed in i just want to get it over with tears formed behind my eyes but i do not cry counting the days that pass me by and it hurts to want everything and nothing at the same time i want what's yours and i want what's mine i want you but i am not giving in this time and when the stars fall i will lie awake you are my shooting star Friday, January 22, 2010 @ 10:35 PM the longest night for sure it is with a heavy heart that i woke up and realised that no i didn't sleep through the night and that the night is still terribly young and i am awake and i have nothing to do. Wednesday, January 20, 2010 @ 11:18 PM wishful thinking i guess i just have one of those wishful thinking moments, where you hope things might be different, even though you know deep down inside, they are probably going to be the same. Tuesday, January 19, 2010 @ 12:44 PM i'll tell you a secret don't tell anyone, but i think my boyfriend is astro boy. yes shocking. @ 11:32 AM I am Legend He had this idea. It was kind of a virologist idea. He believed that you could cure racism and hate... literally cure it, by injecting music and love into people's lives. When he was scheduled to perform at a peace rally, a gunman came to his house and shot him down. Two days later he walked out on that stage and sang. When they asked him why. He said, "The people, who were trying to make this world worse... are not taking a day off. How can I? Light up the darkness." Thursday, January 14, 2010 @ 2:14 PM the ups and the downs it's very conflicting, one moment you can be perfectly fine and the next, you just go crashing down. i don't think it has anything to do with insecurities. it's been on my mind for quite some time and i really think this isn't easy. as much as i want things to be okay, it doesn't work that way. i have to face the fact that my heart feels uneasy and it doesn't go away just like that. Wednesday, January 13, 2010 @ 1:29 PM midweek midday Wednesday seemed like a promising day of rest. but now i sit amidst a room waiting to be sorted out and the surround sound of constant drilling. waking up at 8.30am for tuition was torturous enough having slept at 3am. thankfully, my tutee's dad was very warm and inviting (he gave me fried Japanese chicken and orange juice, GOOD MAN). moreover, Abigail, my tutee is simply adorable. i am determined to change my current sleep late lifestyle. steps to get there: i will not scramble out of home at every chance i get* i shall find joy in staying at home and enjoy my room. i will not answer any calls beyond 12.30am unless there is an emergency i will hold my ground on how my room is going to be like so that i might actually fulfill step 2.* besides i need to defend my room from evil invaders like my mum. every time i come back late, my stuff are either shifted around or new ugly additions are planted. i am very insistent on my room staying the way i like it because i feel that it's my ONLY way of having some say in the house. with my control slipping away, i seek to recapture it slowly. the key is not to alarm my mum if not there might be severe backlash. xav, take note hahaha **MY TEDDY BEAR WILL STAY ON MY COUCH AND NOT ON THE SHELF THANK YOU VERY MUCH. Tuesday, January 12, 2010 @ 12:01 PM jan blues maybe it's the fact that there is non-stop drilling since 9am right behind my bedroom wall, or maybe it's the fact that there is this very persistently annoying raja guy who keeps calling and messaging me despite the fact that i have ignored his every attempt, in any case, this is how i feel right now. ... :( speechless and upset. actually i don't think it's any of the above reasons that caused this current unhealthy state of mind. i know very well how scary it can be when i get upset. that's because once i start the downward spiral of emotions, the possibility of me making a bad decision is infinitely high. this is really not the right time for me to feel this way. it's like chasing the very last train, when we both know it's too late. Saturday, January 09, 2010 @ 10:51 PM fine, i am old, take 2! at a ripe old age of 22 years old, i can tell you that there are many things in life to be grateful for. i have said it time and again, but till this day, this next statement still stands. I HAVE THE MOST AWESOME FRIENDS THAT I AM SURPRISED I GET THROWN TO HANG OUT WITH. and i mean that in the nicest possible way:) SOP. for the never-ending laughter and teasing and bullying and hitting (me) and oh my god why am i still friends with you meanies haha. poor lucas is stuck in the jungle and missed my party again. JJQCA. for just being the clique i can turn to with no judgments. it's amazing how we can talk and laugh about life the way we do and i can absolutely see us still at it with all the 'swimming, suana + sleepover' 10 years from now. my university friends who are amazing. i am just so blessed to meet people like them. i always thought that university friends would be mere acquaintances but with them, that has never and will never be the case. thanks for all the interesting lectures when i do attend and all your patience during project works :) 881! i just realised they are kind of colour coordinated for my party. anyways for the many years of emotional support that was crucial for my mental stability thankyou. words cannot express how much i appreciate each of your concern (this does not apply so much to zhimin/darryl/jimmy hahaha) jacelyn ;) my gossip buddy that i update with various snippets of gossip everytime we meet. she must be one of the most updated source of my traumatic love life. for that, she is freaking awesome (to listen to me go on and on about guys is not an easy task) LIWEN. oh my goodness where do i even begin. my oldest friend ever besides gwenlyn/wanzi. the one who has been through it all with me. it's like going through hell and surviving it. she's definitely one of those that i can count on and vice versa:) XAV. sometimes i wake up feeling weird because it isn't easy being someone's girlfriend. and it's worse when the guy is xavier see. don't ask me what that means, i have no idea myself. what i do know is that never in my life have i been so happy and contented when i am with him, so i guess that makes things easy sometimes. i used to think that i knew what love was. but now with him, i realised that LOVE is so much more than what i could ever grasp then. maybe i will never grasp the idea of LOVE in its entirety. but for now, i can safely say with all my heart that i love him (and all you guys go omg why is chiewyee even saying this on her blog) CINDY!!! i am always excited when i see her. i guess it's cause i don't see her often because she's always in the states? but it's a blessing to have her and i am glad that everytime she comes back, she's still the same cindy i have known and love for years :) kiansiong. haha he will never read this, but still i am thankful that i remain QUITE close to him after everything that has happened. thanks for the listening ear, it was crucial for me to talk to someone who at least knew what the hell i was talking about. i am going to end with this photo because i like it very much :D till next year, no dramas please. Wednesday, January 06, 2010 @ 6:56 PM birthday scar thinking that it was a good idea to set up the mahjong table by myself, i ended up with the mahjong table falling flat on the marble floor, but not before it hit and scrapped right down my bottom right leg. now, we have a mahjong table with one missing drawer (the impact broke the drawer) and an angry red looking scar that is about 10cm in length. BRILLIANT, i am officially the clumsiest birthday clown ever. haha. Monday, January 04, 2010 @ 12:52 PM wuhoo FIRST PRESENT OF THE DAY: RETURNED POSSESSION OF BELOVED CAR KEYS. told you today's a good day ;) @ 11:54 AM chiewyee's TAKE 2 omg exciting! this year is going to be a good one. i can just feel it. see you guys later :) :) :) ps, no one says i am old. (and the no one does not refer to lunlun & lingling) scream scream scream scream scream	Saturday, January 30, 2010 @ 4:27 PM the one thing that i tried to hold on to of all the things i have believed in i just want to get it over with tears formed behind my eyes but i do not cry counting the days that pass me by and it hurts to want everything and nothing at the same time i want what's yours and i want what's mine i want you but i am not giving in this time and when the stars fall i will lie awake you are my shooting star Friday, January 22, 2010 @ 10:35 PM the longest night for sure it is with a heavy heart that i woke up and realised that no i didn't sleep through the night and that the night is still terribly young and i am awake and i have nothing to do. Wednesday, January 20, 2010 @ 11:18 PM wishful thinking i guess i just have one of those wishful thinking moments, where you hope things might be different, even though you know deep down inside, they are probably going to be the same. Tuesday, January 19, 2010 @ 12:44 PM i'll tell you a secret don't tell anyone, but i think my boyfriend is astro boy. yes shocking. @ 11:32 AM I am Legend He had this idea. It was kind of a virologist idea. He believed that you could cure racism and hate... literally cure it, by injecting music and love into people's lives. When he was scheduled to perform at a peace rally, a gunman came to his house and shot him down. Two days later he walked out on that stage and sang. When they asked him why. He said, "The people, who were trying to make this world worse... are not taking a day off. How can I? Light up the darkness." Thursday, January 14, 2010 @ 2:14 PM the ups and the downs it's very conflicting, one moment you can be perfectly fine and the next, you just go crashing down. i don't think it has anything to do with insecurities. it's been on my mind for quite some time and i really think this isn't easy. as much as i want things to be okay, it doesn't work that way. i have to face the fact that my heart feels uneasy and it doesn't go away just like that. Wednesday, January 13, 2010 @ 1:29 PM midweek midday Wednesday seemed like a promising day of rest. but now i sit amidst a room waiting to be sorted out and the surround sound of constant drilling. waking up at 8.30am for tuition was torturous enough having slept at 3am. thankfully, my tutee's dad was very warm and inviting (he gave me fried Japanese chicken and orange juice, GOOD MAN). moreover, Abigail, my tutee is simply adorable. i am determined to change my current sleep late lifestyle. steps to get there: i will not scramble out of home at every chance i get* i shall find joy in staying at home and enjoy my room. i will not answer any calls beyond 12.30am unless there is an emergency i will hold my ground on how my room is going to be like so that i might actually fulfill step 2.* besides i need to defend my room from evil invaders like my mum. every time i come back late, my stuff are either shifted around or new ugly additions are planted. i am very insistent on my room staying the way i like it because i feel that it's my ONLY way of having some say in the house. with my control slipping away, i seek to recapture it slowly. the key is not to alarm my mum if not there might be severe backlash. xav, take note hahaha **MY TEDDY BEAR WILL STAY ON MY COUCH AND NOT ON THE SHELF THANK YOU VERY MUCH. Tuesday, January 12, 2010 @ 12:01 PM jan blues maybe it's the fact that there is non-stop drilling since 9am right behind my bedroom wall, or maybe it's the fact that there is this very persistently annoying raja guy who keeps calling and messaging me despite the fact that i have ignored his every attempt, in any case, this is how i feel right now. ... :( speechless and upset. actually i don't think it's any of the above reasons that caused this current unhealthy state of mind. i know very well how scary it can be when i get upset. that's because once i start the downward spiral of emotions, the possibility of me making a bad decision is infinitely high. this is really not the right time for me to feel this way. it's like chasing the very last train, when we both know it's too late. Saturday, January 09, 2010 @ 10:51 PM fine, i am old, take 2! at a ripe old age of 22 years old, i can tell you that there are many things in life to be grateful for. i have said it time and again, but till this day, this next statement still stands. I HAVE THE MOST AWESOME FRIENDS THAT I AM SURPRISED I GET THROWN TO HANG OUT WITH. and i mean that in the nicest possible way:) SOP. for the never-ending laughter and teasing and bullying and hitting (me) and oh my god why am i still friends with you meanies haha. poor lucas is stuck in the jungle and missed my party again. JJQCA. for just being the clique i can turn to with no judgments. it's amazing how we can talk and laugh about life the way we do and i can absolutely see us still at it with all the 'swimming, suana + sleepover' 10 years from now. my university friends who are amazing. i am just so blessed to meet people like them. i always thought that university friends would be mere acquaintances but with them, that has never and will never be the case. thanks for all the interesting lectures when i do attend and all your patience during project works :) 881! i just realised they are kind of colour coordinated for my party. anyways for the many years of emotional support that was crucial for my mental stability thankyou. words cannot express how much i appreciate each of your concern (this does not apply so much to zhimin/darryl/jimmy hahaha) jacelyn ;) my gossip buddy that i update with various snippets of gossip everytime we meet. she must be one of the most updated source of my traumatic love life. for that, she is freaking awesome (to listen to me go on and on about guys is not an easy task) LIWEN. oh my goodness where do i even begin. my oldest friend ever besides gwenlyn/wanzi. the one who has been through it all with me. it's like going through hell and surviving it. she's definitely one of those that i can count on and vice versa:) XAV. sometimes i wake up feeling weird because it isn't easy being someone's girlfriend. and it's worse when the guy is xavier see. don't ask me what that means, i have no idea myself. what i do know is that never in my life have i been so happy and contented when i am with him, so i guess that makes things easy sometimes. i used to think that i knew what love was. but now with him, i realised that LOVE is so much more than what i could ever grasp then. maybe i will never grasp the idea of LOVE in its entirety. but for now, i can safely say with all my heart that i love him (and all you guys go omg why is chiewyee even saying this on her blog) CINDY!!! i am always excited when i see her. i guess it's cause i don't see her often because she's always in the states? but it's a blessing to have her and i am glad that everytime she comes back, she's still the same cindy i have known and love for years :) kiansiong. haha he will never read this, but still i am thankful that i remain QUITE close to him after everything that has happened. thanks for the listening ear, it was crucial for me to talk to someone who at least knew what the hell i was talking about. i am going to end with this photo because i like it very much :D till next year, no dramas please. Wednesday, January 06, 2010 @ 6:56 PM birthday scar thinking that it was a good idea to set up the mahjong table by myself, i ended up with the mahjong table falling flat on the marble floor, but not before it hit and scrapped right down my bottom right leg. now, we have a mahjong table with one missing drawer (the impact broke the drawer) and an angry red looking scar that is about 10cm in length. BRILLIANT, i am officially the clumsiest birthday clown ever. haha. Monday, January 04, 2010 @ 12:52 PM wuhoo FIRST PRESENT OF THE DAY: RETURNED POSSESSION OF BELOVED CAR KEYS. told you today's a good day ;) @ 11:54 AM chiewyee's TAKE 2 omg exciting! this year is going to be a good one. i can just feel it. see you guys later :) :) :) ps, no one says i am old. (and the no one does not refer to lunlun & lingling) scream scream scream scream scream	profile chiewyee! basically what we have here is a dreamer. someone out of touch with reality. when she jumped, she probably thought she'd fly. bolditalicunderline~~strikeout~~	loves Teen Vogue Fashionista chronicles of miss snow chictopia gossip girl 90210 cindy daniel janice jacelyn jaslyn jeremiah lucas mavis mr choy qiling sophie weilun woei lin zong bing	monthly archive December 2005 January 2006 February 2006 March 2006 April 2006 May 2006 June 2006 July 2006 August 2006 September 2006 October 2006 November 2006 December 2006 January 2007 February 2007 March 2007 April 2007 May 2007 June 2007 July 2007 August 2007 September 2007 October 2007 November 2007 December 2007 January 2008 February 2008 March 2008 April 2008 May 2008 June 2008 July 2008 August 2008 September 2008 October 2008 December 2008 January 2009 February 2009 March 2009 April 2009 May 2009 June 2009 July 2009 August 2009 September 2009 October 2009 November 2009 December 2009 January 2010 February 2010 March 2010 April 2010 May 2010 June 2010 July 2010 August 2010 September 2010 October 2010 November 2010 January 2012 recent entries MOVED!i have finally succumbed to tumblr! please s... it is always a cultural experience to visit jingli... this is how lunlun sees me. even i have to admit, ... don't you just love lucas. haha! today shall be a happy day with janice in town and... respect and honour. i can't emphasise enough for we were saved in this hope, but hope that is s... you don't have to take yourself seriously, but tak...
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