there is a part of me that is bent on screaming and running away. i feel as if i am very very small, thus insignificant and the whole world is getting bigger and bigger. i am almost convinced that one day, they will forget that i am here, that i exist, that i am not exactly feeling quite okay about being left behind. it is an absolute torture to be myself right now. i seem to not know how to be me. you would think that after 22 years of living, I would get the hang of things, but no.

Gandhi said that whatever you do in life will be insignificant. But it's very important that you do it. I tend to agree with the first part.
-Remember me

we were meant to live for so much more.
have we lost ourselves?

Scarlett: what about that hammock over there?

Mike: yea

Scarlett: yea, i think you quit that one because you just decided not to try anymore

Scarlett: you didn't have to come after me again

Mike: yes i did. because i love you. you are the best decision i ever made. i just forgot. and then i fell off a bridge and things got pretty weird after that but i am never going to forget again. i know i have been in a bad mood for the last twenty years, but if you let me, i swear i will spend the rest of my life making it up to you. i thought i wanted a second chance at life but now i know i just want a second chance with you...

Scarlett: weird.

Mike: yea

Scarlett: i miss you

-17 again

let me do one incoherent post before i crumble to my bed.

i am exhausted. pathetically so.
the only thought that i am capable of conjuring out is "i can't think"

i just finished editing 5 chapters of work, compressed them and sent them off individually to the lecturer. it sounds easy but i almost stabbed myself for every second i had to devote to this project. and trust me there were many seconds

nation building tutorial was amazingly fun. on a side note, it has been brought to my attention that i have this, i quote "very cute habit of sticking out my tongue ever so seductively whenever i talk" i am baffled as to how i don't even realise myself behaving like a hissing snake. by the way, it eludes me as to how a guy can talk to you but not look at you and look at the guy next to you during a group discussion. it is so obvious, i don't even know whether to feel embarrassed for him or myself.

woeilin is putting me up for sale starting at $1?? since when did i offer myself?

am i really so easily contented? the crazy thing is i already feel like i am being very unreasonable!

my last words before i depart from this conscious world:

I WILL NOT LOOK AT SOMETHING THAT WILL MAKE ME UPSET. I WILL NOT LOOK AT SOMETHING THAT WILL MAKE ME UPSET. I WILL NOT LOOK AT SOMETHING THAT WILL MAKE ME UPSET.
do me a favour and multiply this to infinity.

tangerine walking-on-air comfy friendship shoes > ferragamo


cereals with milk in the morning reminds me of buffets on cruise ships. and that makes me very hungry.

you depend so much on people for your happiness, but you don't realise that you are the only one who can make yourself happy. at the end of the day, you just want someone to need you so that you can be happy. that's why you are feeling so miserable now.

you know a person really knows you well when you don't even have to say anything, and he tells you exactly why you are hurting.


i feel super cheated.

i don't even buy magazines so me checking out the magazine stands ever so often is an effort. after one month of fruitless attempts, i felt like i struck the lottery when i saw this march issue. however, i was met with much disgust from jaslyn and taurus who were adamant that her world is for aunties. they successfully made me feel that holding a her world magazine on my way home wasn't a very good image booster. to make things worse, the magazine didn't even featured the article about xavier.

THEN I BUY FOR WHAT?
my 6 bucks. poopy.

had a lovely chilling lunch with jaslyn and qiling though :) we now have friendship shoes that we bought together at the central forum. it's like taking our friendship to a whole new level. oh the commitment! jaslyn is very insistent that we must wear the shoes every time we meet up.

kiansiong: you have serious mood swings man

chiewyee: nah i am just very passionate about my emotions. alot of people mistake it for mood swings.

kiansiong: haha so why do you hate him

chiewyee: and i don't hate him. i just don't understand him

kiansiong: 'omg i hate him.' -that's what you said. hahahaha

chiewyee: hahahahaha omg i hate you.

kiansiong: you damn emo, using your emotions too freely

a much anticipated NO ONE ELSE comes full circle @ island creamery! :)
no one else does swimming and gym like we do.

dan dan da man says (12:13 AM):
i used some super cheesy
pickup line today


dan dan da man says (12:14 AM):
THAT I CREATED MYSELF

chiewyee says (12:14 AM):
hahahhahahahahahhahahaha
WA SEH

dan dan da man says (12:14 AM):
VERY ZAI

chiewyee says (12:14 AM):
sia la

dan dan da man says (12:14 AM):
IT GOES LIKE THIS
so we were smsing
then i told her i watching madagascar
then she asked nice meh
i said ya nice but not as nice as me
then she asked huh wat is not as nice as you
then i said nothing is as nice as me. in fact i can only think of one thing that is nicer than me

dan dan da man says (12:15 AM):
then she say huh whats that
then i said if theres something nicer than me, it'd have to be you n me
OMG WHERE GOT SO ZAI ONE
then she replied haha did you get that from somewhere

chiewyee says (12:16 AM):
AHAHHAHAHHAHAHHAHHAHHAHAHAHHAHHAHAHHHAHAHHAHAHAHHA
"OMG WHERE GOT SO ZAI ONE"


dan dan da man says (12:16 AM):
i was very impressed by this lor.
by myself.

i am tickled by how dan is so pleased with himself.

the funny thing is nobody ever really knows how much anyone is hurting. We could be standing next to somebody who is completely broken and we wouldn’t even know.

i wish i could stretch out my hand and you would touch it and know exactly what is churning through my heart, soul and mind.

Honestly, if you're not willing to sound stupid you don't deserve to be in love.
- A Lot Like Love

it was like my soul was draining itself and i was emoting sadness so acute that people standing within a 1 metre radius can feel it and shudder.

I know that guy that sent those emails is somewhere inside of you, but I can't wait for him... because waiting for you is like waiting for rain in this drought. Useless and disappointing.
- a Cinderella story

don’t be flattered that he misses you. He should miss you. You’re deeply missable. However, he’s still the same person who just broke your heart. Remember the only reason he can miss you is because he’s choosing, every day, not to be with you.

i don't want to feel like i was the problem. it's not that i don't wish him well but sometimes i don't want to know that i wasn't good enough and that someone else could move him in a way i could never. i would like to believe that he was incapable of loving because only then i won't be completely pathetic.


i like Abigail because she tells me things as it is. in her (very perfect) world, all she ever worry about are just homework, swimming and when she can watch tv. to her, everything is simple. adults complicate things and think too much.

i just want someone to take my breath away so i can forget to breathe or think.


the thing about nightmares is that they always feel so real.
then again, i wished reality was a dream i could wake up from.

when things go wrong as they sometimes will, when things in life seems all uphill, when you feel real low and tensions are high, and you want to smile but can only sigh, when everything that's happening is wearing you down bit by bit, rest if you must, but live on for those around you, and don't you quit.

this too shall pass.

my tutee, jon's full name is Jonathan Bennett Tan.
that came as a shockwave of epic proportions because there can only be ONE Jonathan Bennett. and he looks like this:remember friendster?
this is still on my profile,

• Who I Want to Meet:
  

  JONATHAN BENNETT
  wentworth miller
  
  someone who looks and behaves exactly like me.

yes sometimes life plays cruel jokes on us.


jon tries by making a joke.
abigail tries by laughing.
joel tries by sleeping on the floor.
i try by not losing my patience.

we all try sometimes to get through the night.





the same picture seen from different angles.
makes you think again doesn't it?

try to see where i am coming from. just try

so once again, you are stuck between a rock and a crazy place.
-the big bang theory

don't you love it when that happens haha

every girl i tried to date, i compare to you, but there's no comparison. there's no girl like you that i have met thus far in my life.

just as it is natural for you to study in silence, i can concentrate perfectly with noise distractions

do you like ice cream?

then why don't you kiss it?

you can even lick it, oops *covers her mouth*

hello? since when does an 8 year old tell you something so innocent and dirty at the same time? by the way i wonder why i am being paid to tutor Abigail when all i do is hear her talk about boys, kissing and marriage while occasionally help her out with her homework. for your information, she hates boys, thinks kissing is EEW DISGUSTING and vows never to get married (if she does though, she must marry a christian, no other races)

never mind the fact that she is confusing religion with race. but i have never met a girl who is so resistant to the whole idea of love.


i dreamt that the world was ending and that you had to be very smart to be allowed into this rescue facility.

obviously been watching too many apocalyptic movies.


Dear Time,

why won't you go faster? these 2 days feel like 2 weeks to me.
oh God this is harder than i thought it would be. knock me unconscious now.

i need to lose track of you. please consider running.

please?

♥chiewyee


i hate that my interview time was 9am and i was still at speedwing's novena office at 8.55am.

so i just had to ask the person if it would be okay for me to be late. she just looked at me and said, "it's a VISA INTERVIEW."

ok i got it. i wished she would lie to me though and say something like, "oh yea sure, people arrive late ALL THE TIME. no biggie" BUT NO.

and so my misfortunes continued as i drove up to the embassy and realised that they do not provide parking lots and i had to park at the not so nearby hospital.

the only good thing that happened today was that i made a new friend! she's really cool because she's a SQ stewardess and she was very very nice.

i especially like her when she said she thought i was studying in the US because my ENGLISH IS GOOD. points to the lady yo.

in any case, the whole process was draining, confusing and suffocating. when i finally emerged from the high security facility 2 hours later, i felt like i was released from prison...

only to find out that my parking fee was $8.15 while serving my brief "jail stint".

this USA work and travel thing is proving to cost me both financially and emotionally.


sometimes my heart aches a little when i think about the time you told me you felt like i was making you choose. i am not upset that you thought i was making you choose, but i am upset because even when i didn't make you choose, i realise you have already chosen. and it's not the answer i was expecting to hear.


Sometimes you just need someone. Someone to make you smile when you’re sad. Someone to tell you you're beautiful. Someone to look forward to texting you everyday. Someone to talk to you every night. Someone to say, "I love you." And mean it. Sometimes you just need someone.

but i really cannot accept it
is it normal?
must i accept this kind of behaviour?

i find it very sad that girls question their own values, just because the guys they care for don't have values. he should treat you well, never for a moment, settle for anything less.





i live for your emails, photos and calls, because it makes me feel that i am with you/ you are with me even when i am not/ you are not.


i want mess and chaos.
i want someone to go crazy out of his mind for me.
i want to feel passion, heat and madness.


but first, manicure and pedicure please ;)


it's really unsettling. one moment i can be perfectly fine, then the next thing i know, i miss him so much that i can hardly breathe.

One day, in retrospect, the years of struggle will strike you as the most beautiful. Remember that.

-Sigmund Freud

Will marry this guy in a heartbeat.


In a bid to adopt positive thinking, from now on, i will refrain from saying the words "die" and "what the hell".

in any case, i had a rather unfortunate morning, when the pipe decided to burst and spray water all over my toilet floor/walls at between 1 and 3am. the fact that i am not even sure about the exact timing it burst or how long the water was flowing is because i happily slept through it. seeing that i went to bed at 1am and got woken up at 3am by my brother who came in my room and screamed, "HOW COULD YOU NOT HEAR THAT? I HEARD IT EVEN FROM MY ROOM", i come to a conclusion:

Basically i can sleep through any natural disasters. mucho gracias neighbouring construction, you have trained me well.

with regards to how i feel now, it is taking every ounce of my energy not to say the above negative words.

hasta luego!


Hola! yes i am still pretty much fascinated with the Spanish language. i happen to think guys who speak Spanish sound very sexy (well except for lun and dan, but then again everything they do is so not sexy)

Today is an awesome day, i woke up just in time for tuition with my elusive secondary 3 tutee. the only reason i am even mentioning this is because it is the fourth lesson which is otherwise known as PAY DAY. need i say more?

And after so long, i finally went for church! people are always talking about how sermons speak to them, and i guess today is the first time in a long time that i agree.

God spoke what He wanted to see. He never spoke of what He saw. Everything begins with believing. What you believe controls your life.
-Pastor Prince

i marvel at how revelations are always so... simple.

anyways after service, i shopped the entire stretch of suntec and raffles city alone, i realise i quite like it. the being alone part, not the shopping part. saying that i love shopping is redundant because it is as obvious as the stars in the night sky.

so, that makes it two revelations in one day. oh mi calidad (oh my goodness), i am on fire today!


hola encantada,

me llamo chiewyee. soy de singapurenese. se hablar espanol.

hasta luego!

te quiero!
♥chiewyee



i am surprised he, of all people, had the answers to my problems.
clearly, my eyes are now opened to the real world
and hey, it doesn't feel all too bad.

i now feel fluffy like the clouds:)
though honestly, who have we been fooling for the past 4 years besides ourselves?


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forgive the lame title link. that is not the point.
the point is,
did you see how he looked at her? there is no denying that this man loves her. and that is the most precious thing you can ever find.


what happens when it has come to a point when people don't want to listen anymore? or rather they start giving you disapproving looks whenever you start. i think it means- i ought to stop. thing is, can we ever stop our hearts from hurting?


qiling - But my heart told my head "This time no" says (12:08 AM):
PLSSSSS WHINETOCHIEWYEE.COM.SG

chiewyee says (12:09 AM):
IS THERE SUCH A WEBSITE
that would be the coolest shit

qiling - But my heart told my head "This time no" says (12:09 AM):
WILL BE UP IN 2 MINS

chiewyee says (12:09 AM):
LOVEIT



can you tell how bored i am because i am very bored that is why boredom has driven the purpose of this entry which is to tell you how bored i am just so you know i am fast sinking into the valley of boredom.


it's when people realise that there is no way the sadness is going to go away,
that it actually goes away,
only to be replaced by something far more sinister
and that's anger.


as if one big bang of kaboom is not enough, the aftershocks are certainly enough to leave me permanently doubtful.

meanwhile, the big bang theory is doing a very good job of distracting me from reality.


i strongly believe that one has to accept that their actions then, have recurring consequences now.

for now, let's just say i am utilising one of my best skill in life- forgetfulness.


there were many instances where i felt that i wanted/needed to stand up and just walk away. but i didn't.

then there's the night that i felt so lost and confused to the point that it tired me out. but i held on.

still, nothing compares to this morning where i woke up, relieved to actually hear the drilling noises. it was a welcomed distraction from my thoughts.

i am actually pretty ashamed for subjecting myself to what killed my heart in the first place. it was as if i thought that maybe reading it again will make it hurt less and less.

well it didn't.

i foresee vicious cycles.

there is a part of me that is bent on screaming and running away. i feel as if i am very very small, thus insignificant and the whole world is getting bigger and bigger. i am almost convinced that one day, they will forget that i am here, that i exist, that i am not exactly feeling quite okay about being left behind. it is an absolute torture to be myself right now. i seem to not know how to be me. you would think that after 22 years of living, I would get the hang of things, but no.

Gandhi said that whatever you do in life will be insignificant. But it's very important that you do it. I tend to agree with the first part.
-Remember me

we were meant to live for so much more.
have we lost ourselves?

Scarlett: what about that hammock over there?

Mike: yea

Scarlett: yea, i think you quit that one because you just decided not to try anymore

Scarlett: you didn't have to come after me again

Mike: yes i did. because i love you. you are the best decision i ever made. i just forgot. and then i fell off a bridge and things got pretty weird after that but i am never going to forget again. i know i have been in a bad mood for the last twenty years, but if you let me, i swear i will spend the rest of my life making it up to you. i thought i wanted a second chance at life but now i know i just want a second chance with you...

Scarlett: weird.

Mike: yea

Scarlett: i miss you

-17 again

let me do one incoherent post before i crumble to my bed.

i am exhausted. pathetically so.
the only thought that i am capable of conjuring out is "i can't think"

i just finished editing 5 chapters of work, compressed them and sent them off individually to the lecturer. it sounds easy but i almost stabbed myself for every second i had to devote to this project. and trust me there were many seconds

nation building tutorial was amazingly fun. on a side note, it has been brought to my attention that i have this, i quote "very cute habit of sticking out my tongue ever so seductively whenever i talk" i am baffled as to how i don't even realise myself behaving like a hissing snake. by the way, it eludes me as to how a guy can talk to you but not look at you and look at the guy next to you during a group discussion. it is so obvious, i don't even know whether to feel embarrassed for him or myself.

woeilin is putting me up for sale starting at $1?? since when did i offer myself?

am i really so easily contented? the crazy thing is i already feel like i am being very unreasonable!

my last words before i depart from this conscious world:

I WILL NOT LOOK AT SOMETHING THAT WILL MAKE ME UPSET. I WILL NOT LOOK AT SOMETHING THAT WILL MAKE ME UPSET. I WILL NOT LOOK AT SOMETHING THAT WILL MAKE ME UPSET.
do me a favour and multiply this to infinity.

tangerine walking-on-air comfy friendship shoes > ferragamo


cereals with milk in the morning reminds me of buffets on cruise ships. and that makes me very hungry.

you depend so much on people for your happiness, but you don't realise that you are the only one who can make yourself happy. at the end of the day, you just want someone to need you so that you can be happy. that's why you are feeling so miserable now.

you know a person really knows you well when you don't even have to say anything, and he tells you exactly why you are hurting.


i feel super cheated.

i don't even buy magazines so me checking out the magazine stands ever so often is an effort. after one month of fruitless attempts, i felt like i struck the lottery when i saw this march issue. however, i was met with much disgust from jaslyn and taurus who were adamant that her world is for aunties. they successfully made me feel that holding a her world magazine on my way home wasn't a very good image booster. to make things worse, the magazine didn't even featured the article about xavier.

THEN I BUY FOR WHAT?
my 6 bucks. poopy.

had a lovely chilling lunch with jaslyn and qiling though :) we now have friendship shoes that we bought together at the central forum. it's like taking our friendship to a whole new level. oh the commitment! jaslyn is very insistent that we must wear the shoes every time we meet up.

kiansiong: you have serious mood swings man

chiewyee: nah i am just very passionate about my emotions. alot of people mistake it for mood swings.

kiansiong: haha so why do you hate him

chiewyee: and i don't hate him. i just don't understand him

kiansiong: 'omg i hate him.' -that's what you said. hahahaha

chiewyee: hahahahaha omg i hate you.

kiansiong: you damn emo, using your emotions too freely

a much anticipated NO ONE ELSE comes full circle @ island creamery! :)
no one else does swimming and gym like we do.

dan dan da man says (12:13 AM):
i used some super cheesy
pickup line today


dan dan da man says (12:14 AM):
THAT I CREATED MYSELF

chiewyee says (12:14 AM):
hahahhahahahahahhahahaha
WA SEH

dan dan da man says (12:14 AM):
VERY ZAI

chiewyee says (12:14 AM):
sia la

dan dan da man says (12:14 AM):
IT GOES LIKE THIS
so we were smsing
then i told her i watching madagascar
then she asked nice meh
i said ya nice but not as nice as me
then she asked huh wat is not as nice as you
then i said nothing is as nice as me. in fact i can only think of one thing that is nicer than me

dan dan da man says (12:15 AM):
then she say huh whats that
then i said if theres something nicer than me, it'd have to be you n me
OMG WHERE GOT SO ZAI ONE
then she replied haha did you get that from somewhere

chiewyee says (12:16 AM):
AHAHHAHAHHAHAHHAHHAHHAHAHAHHAHHAHAHHHAHAHHAHAHAHHA
"OMG WHERE GOT SO ZAI ONE"


dan dan da man says (12:16 AM):
i was very impressed by this lor.
by myself.

i am tickled by how dan is so pleased with himself.

the funny thing is nobody ever really knows how much anyone is hurting. We could be standing next to somebody who is completely broken and we wouldn’t even know.

i wish i could stretch out my hand and you would touch it and know exactly what is churning through my heart, soul and mind.

Honestly, if you're not willing to sound stupid you don't deserve to be in love.
- A Lot Like Love

it was like my soul was draining itself and i was emoting sadness so acute that people standing within a 1 metre radius can feel it and shudder.

I know that guy that sent those emails is somewhere inside of you, but I can't wait for him... because waiting for you is like waiting for rain in this drought. Useless and disappointing.
- a Cinderella story

don’t be flattered that he misses you. He should miss you. You’re deeply missable. However, he’s still the same person who just broke your heart. Remember the only reason he can miss you is because he’s choosing, every day, not to be with you.

i don't want to feel like i was the problem. it's not that i don't wish him well but sometimes i don't want to know that i wasn't good enough and that someone else could move him in a way i could never. i would like to believe that he was incapable of loving because only then i won't be completely pathetic.


i like Abigail because she tells me things as it is. in her (very perfect) world, all she ever worry about are just homework, swimming and when she can watch tv. to her, everything is simple. adults complicate things and think too much.

i just want someone to take my breath away so i can forget to breathe or think.


the thing about nightmares is that they always feel so real.
then again, i wished reality was a dream i could wake up from.

when things go wrong as they sometimes will, when things in life seems all uphill, when you feel real low and tensions are high, and you want to smile but can only sigh, when everything that's happening is wearing you down bit by bit, rest if you must, but live on for those around you, and don't you quit.

this too shall pass.

my tutee, jon's full name is Jonathan Bennett Tan.
that came as a shockwave of epic proportions because there can only be ONE Jonathan Bennett. and he looks like this:remember friendster?
this is still on my profile,

• Who I Want to Meet:
  

  JONATHAN BENNETT
  wentworth miller
  
  someone who looks and behaves exactly like me.

yes sometimes life plays cruel jokes on us.


jon tries by making a joke.
abigail tries by laughing.
joel tries by sleeping on the floor.
i try by not losing my patience.

we all try sometimes to get through the night.





the same picture seen from different angles.
makes you think again doesn't it?

try to see where i am coming from. just try

so once again, you are stuck between a rock and a crazy place.
-the big bang theory

don't you love it when that happens haha

every girl i tried to date, i compare to you, but there's no comparison. there's no girl like you that i have met thus far in my life.

just as it is natural for you to study in silence, i can concentrate perfectly with noise distractions

do you like ice cream?

then why don't you kiss it?

you can even lick it, oops *covers her mouth*

hello? since when does an 8 year old tell you something so innocent and dirty at the same time? by the way i wonder why i am being paid to tutor Abigail when all i do is hear her talk about boys, kissing and marriage while occasionally help her out with her homework. for your information, she hates boys, thinks kissing is EEW DISGUSTING and vows never to get married (if she does though, she must marry a christian, no other races)

never mind the fact that she is confusing religion with race. but i have never met a girl who is so resistant to the whole idea of love.


i dreamt that the world was ending and that you had to be very smart to be allowed into this rescue facility.

obviously been watching too many apocalyptic movies.


Dear Time,

why won't you go faster? these 2 days feel like 2 weeks to me.
oh God this is harder than i thought it would be. knock me unconscious now.

i need to lose track of you. please consider running.

please?

♥chiewyee


i hate that my interview time was 9am and i was still at speedwing's novena office at 8.55am.

so i just had to ask the person if it would be okay for me to be late. she just looked at me and said, "it's a VISA INTERVIEW."

ok i got it. i wished she would lie to me though and say something like, "oh yea sure, people arrive late ALL THE TIME. no biggie" BUT NO.

and so my misfortunes continued as i drove up to the embassy and realised that they do not provide parking lots and i had to park at the not so nearby hospital.

the only good thing that happened today was that i made a new friend! she's really cool because she's a SQ stewardess and she was very very nice.

i especially like her when she said she thought i was studying in the US because my ENGLISH IS GOOD. points to the lady yo.

in any case, the whole process was draining, confusing and suffocating. when i finally emerged from the high security facility 2 hours later, i felt like i was released from prison...

only to find out that my parking fee was $8.15 while serving my brief "jail stint".

this USA work and travel thing is proving to cost me both financially and emotionally.


sometimes my heart aches a little when i think about the time you told me you felt like i was making you choose. i am not upset that you thought i was making you choose, but i am upset because even when i didn't make you choose, i realise you have already chosen. and it's not the answer i was expecting to hear.


Sometimes you just need someone. Someone to make you smile when you’re sad. Someone to tell you you're beautiful. Someone to look forward to texting you everyday. Someone to talk to you every night. Someone to say, "I love you." And mean it. Sometimes you just need someone.

but i really cannot accept it
is it normal?
must i accept this kind of behaviour?

i find it very sad that girls question their own values, just because the guys they care for don't have values. he should treat you well, never for a moment, settle for anything less.





i live for your emails, photos and calls, because it makes me feel that i am with you/ you are with me even when i am not/ you are not.


i want mess and chaos.
i want someone to go crazy out of his mind for me.
i want to feel passion, heat and madness.


but first, manicure and pedicure please ;)


it's really unsettling. one moment i can be perfectly fine, then the next thing i know, i miss him so much that i can hardly breathe.

One day, in retrospect, the years of struggle will strike you as the most beautiful. Remember that.

-Sigmund Freud

Will marry this guy in a heartbeat.


In a bid to adopt positive thinking, from now on, i will refrain from saying the words "die" and "what the hell".

in any case, i had a rather unfortunate morning, when the pipe decided to burst and spray water all over my toilet floor/walls at between 1 and 3am. the fact that i am not even sure about the exact timing it burst or how long the water was flowing is because i happily slept through it. seeing that i went to bed at 1am and got woken up at 3am by my brother who came in my room and screamed, "HOW COULD YOU NOT HEAR THAT? I HEARD IT EVEN FROM MY ROOM", i come to a conclusion:

Basically i can sleep through any natural disasters. mucho gracias neighbouring construction, you have trained me well.

with regards to how i feel now, it is taking every ounce of my energy not to say the above negative words.

hasta luego!


Hola! yes i am still pretty much fascinated with the Spanish language. i happen to think guys who speak Spanish sound very sexy (well except for lun and dan, but then again everything they do is so not sexy)

Today is an awesome day, i woke up just in time for tuition with my elusive secondary 3 tutee. the only reason i am even mentioning this is because it is the fourth lesson which is otherwise known as PAY DAY. need i say more?

And after so long, i finally went for church! people are always talking about how sermons speak to them, and i guess today is the first time in a long time that i agree.

God spoke what He wanted to see. He never spoke of what He saw. Everything begins with believing. What you believe controls your life.
-Pastor Prince

i marvel at how revelations are always so... simple.

anyways after service, i shopped the entire stretch of suntec and raffles city alone, i realise i quite like it. the being alone part, not the shopping part. saying that i love shopping is redundant because it is as obvious as the stars in the night sky.

so, that makes it two revelations in one day. oh mi calidad (oh my goodness), i am on fire today!


hola encantada,

me llamo chiewyee. soy de singapurenese. se hablar espanol.

hasta luego!

te quiero!
♥chiewyee



i am surprised he, of all people, had the answers to my problems.
clearly, my eyes are now opened to the real world
and hey, it doesn't feel all too bad.

i now feel fluffy like the clouds:)
though honestly, who have we been fooling for the past 4 years besides ourselves?


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forgive the lame title link. that is not the point.
the point is,
did you see how he looked at her? there is no denying that this man loves her. and that is the most precious thing you can ever find.


what happens when it has come to a point when people don't want to listen anymore? or rather they start giving you disapproving looks whenever you start. i think it means- i ought to stop. thing is, can we ever stop our hearts from hurting?


qiling - But my heart told my head "This time no" says (12:08 AM):
PLSSSSS WHINETOCHIEWYEE.COM.SG

chiewyee says (12:09 AM):
IS THERE SUCH A WEBSITE
that would be the coolest shit

qiling - But my heart told my head "This time no" says (12:09 AM):
WILL BE UP IN 2 MINS

chiewyee says (12:09 AM):
LOVEIT



can you tell how bored i am because i am very bored that is why boredom has driven the purpose of this entry which is to tell you how bored i am just so you know i am fast sinking into the valley of boredom.


it's when people realise that there is no way the sadness is going to go away,
that it actually goes away,
only to be replaced by something far more sinister
and that's anger.


as if one big bang of kaboom is not enough, the aftershocks are certainly enough to leave me permanently doubtful.

meanwhile, the big bang theory is doing a very good job of distracting me from reality.


i strongly believe that one has to accept that their actions then, have recurring consequences now.

for now, let's just say i am utilising one of my best skill in life- forgetfulness.


there were many instances where i felt that i wanted/needed to stand up and just walk away. but i didn't.

then there's the night that i felt so lost and confused to the point that it tired me out. but i held on.

still, nothing compares to this morning where i woke up, relieved to actually hear the drilling noises. it was a welcomed distraction from my thoughts.

i am actually pretty ashamed for subjecting myself to what killed my heart in the first place. it was as if i thought that maybe reading it again will make it hurt less and less.

well it didn't.

i foresee vicious cycles.

chiewyee!
basically what we have here is a dreamer. someone out of touch with reality. when she jumped, she probably thought she'd fly.
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