Sunday, April 23, 2006 @ 2:13 PM
GOOD LUCK!!ok i think i am going crazy over Kimura Takuya now. i spent the whole of yesterday watching GOOD LUCK!! which yanru stole from her sister. at first my parents were scolding me about watching too much tv. 10seconds later. the whole family was lying in font of the tv watching. can't balme them. who could resist the charm of Kimura Takuya!!!??? gosh he's so cute that i even replayed certain scenes where he displayed absolute cool style. haha my brother threw a pillow at me after too much replaying.after watching the show. i am even more certain that i definitely want to work in SIA. NO MATTER what. any department will do as long as i can get to see real life pilots!;)
lastly to yanru: he's not short in fact he's taller than me by 1cm. so he's 176cm!!!!
Saturday, April 15, 2006 @ 12:27 PM
i think i act like a chameleon. i m always trying to blend into my surroundings and i am constantly changing so much so that i don't even know who i m right now.
liwen is right. i have an alter ego. i have a side to me that no one has ever seen. the ugly side of me that i try desperately to hide.
how much do you really know about anyone. not much. we all have our own secret lives beyond our smiles and laughter.
i always wonder what my dreams mean. why is it that i keep dreaming of the same person over and over again. its painful for me to wake up and realize that the only time i get to see him is through my dreams. i am reminded of the past that we shared no matter how short it is. why do we have to bear all the pain when it is not even our fault.
i detest myself. i detest my experiences. i detest my life.
i just want to be myself for once. sadly i don't think i will ever have that courage to be just me.
i miss my kitten.
