it never fails to amaze me how he's always listening. even when i am complaining and i think the whole world is ignoring me. he was listening. and he always goes and fix my problem like a ninja.

how subtle is his love♥



this screams happy halloween






for them, i would scrub soles and remove cuticles even if i pay someone to do my own nails.


my only hope is that my love is enough.


'do you realise how well you were brought up?'

i didn't, but i realise that now, thanks jas:)♥


William: I live in Notting Hill. You live in Beverly Hills. Everyone in the world knows who you are, my mother has trouble remembering my name.
Anna Scott: I'm also just a girl, standing in front of a boy, asking him to love her.


i woke up before i was horribly killed by a knife in a final destination-themed nightmare. i got to stop having highly violent dreams. moving on to non-violent events, the person who interviewed me today looked disturbingly like jade seah. i swear i almost asked her if they were related. oh and daniel gave me one great advice today,

you need to stop taking him seriously.

INDEED.

JJQCA SLEEPOVER WUHOOOOOOO


God works in mysterious ways (:
it's humbling to share about how much God loves us.

JANICE MY HAPPY BIRD, WHEELS ON THE BUS GO ROUND AND ROUND!♥


my heart aches. but i have a Great God. i put my trust in Him.


somehow i have this mental picture of the three of us laughing while walking each other down the aisle :)


it's fate, it's tragedy


one reason why i shouldn't cook: i really suck at it.


LISTENING TO THE SAME SERMON OVER AND OVER AGAIN IS A GREAT WAY TO START THE DAY :) ♥


i know what you are going through. trust me i have been there.

you have?

yea

i don't think you know the whole story


yea i do.

you have been there?


yea.

really?


yes

are you mad at me?


nope. I love you.

well, do you think what i did was wrong?


absolutely.

was it sin?

yep, it's what put Jesus on the cross.

whatever you obsess over, you are magnetically drawn to and doomed to repeat.

stop obsessing. shoot i am doing it again.


what is fear? it is just a lie. it cannot do anything to you.

don't live in your mind


Above all else, guard your heart, for it is the wellspring of life. -Proverbs 4:23
 




swamped by babies at grandma's birthday dinner tonight. she's my favourite:)

A real man of God will protect his partner. That means he is willing to lay down his very own life, needs and wants for the protection of the one he loves. Every decision he makes when it comes to a relationship has her protection in mind. A woman needs to feel secure, that she is protected and safe with her man. She doesn’t need to second guess, wonder if she will be okay, or have her heart and mind played with. A real man of God will not only protect his woman physically, but also mentally, emotionally and spiritually. He always has the highest good in his mind for her safety, well being and wholeness.

'you are too much, and not enough, you are just not worth the effort.'

if anyone ever make you feel that way, then he's not worth your heart.
it is a joy instead to bask in God's love:)


there are elements that are out of your control in life, and those elements are much more hurtful and much more painful and because they hit so close to home and they are so real, often times we seek to try to fix it or control it in our strength, even though we are incapable. we do not have the power or the resource to control these elements. they are bigger than us, they are larger than us, we can't control what people do or say, or the injustice of life. it was not your fault, these are elements that are outside of your control. but just because they are outside of your control doesn't mean that they still don't hurt.

and because they hurt so bad and we don't want them to happen again to us, we seek to control these elements that we don't even have the resource, the ability or the capacity to control. and often times, we exert so much energy, strength and stamina that we find ourselves at the verge of exhaustion because we are incapable of fixing these elements and in some cases, problems. it is an endless cycle.

i know it hurts, but it is outside of your control. these elements can actually drive us to the right place and to the right person.

mark 6:45 Jesus urged his disciples to get into the boat. Jesus is God. Even though he knew there was a storm brewing, he puts them on the boat anyway.

why?

It is good for us.

But know this, Jesus will always save us, he will always deliver us, sometimes not from things but through things.

his glory, his splendour, his majesty and his beauty often times is revealed in the winds and waves of life. the winds and the waves drive you to him, and for that you should be grateful for life's complexities, curveballs, challenges and elements that are outside of your control because they seem to perpetually drive you back to your source and saviour, Jesus Christ.

some of you were called in the calm. but now the calm has turned into chaos and you wonder if you are still called. the truth is you are more called than you have ever been. and there comes a resolution to your calling, when your calling goes from the calm to the chaotic storm of life and then you realise that if you can stay calm and be who God called you to be, in the midst of this chaotic storm, you can make it through anything.

at the end of the hell down there, there is a heaven. just keep going forward, do not be fooled into backsliding.

one thing about challenges and storms, Jesus always sees you.

Jesus puts us in the boat, not because He wants to see if we can handle it. He puts us in the boat, because he knows no matter what, He's in control. We may freak out and lose our minds, but He will be there when we need Him. He will watch us every step of the way and we will be better, stronger and we will love and trust Him more at the end of this day. if Jesus put you in that boat, that boat will not capsize. it might feel like it's going to capsize, you might get seasick, vomitting all over the side of the boat, but if He says you will get to somewhere, come hell or high waters, you will get there.

do not trip, do not freak, do not abandon ship, You are not alone. it happens to the best of us, even to the apostles. these are the men destined for greatness, yet they too are being tossed by the waves.

matthew 14:27 But immediately Jesus spoke to them, saying,'Be of good cheer! It is I; do not be afraid.'

admist all of the horrendous upheaval, Jesus was now walking on the water, which should give them some peace. He had to speak up, because he was speaking that through the loud winds and the waves. as He's saying that, you are still up against the wall. This is a challenge of our faith. He says, 'Be of good cheer' and there is still chaos. Jesus says 'do not be afraid, be happy!' Many a times, people think that they will only be of good cheer if Jesus fixes the problem. But, Jesus is on top of what is harrassing you, so no matter how long this thing last, Jesus is on top of it. Know one thing. This pain will not last and you will get to where you were called to. you are going to make it.

you can be going through something and yet you are happy. not because you are in denial. yes, the waves are big and you can't even stand in this wind. but when you look to Jesus, you will see that He's walking on your circumstances and He is in control and no matter what, you are going to make it through. This doesn't mean that it is not going to be painful, it is. but this is out of your control and if it is out of your control, then you got to turn to somebody who can control the elements.

Luke 8:25 But He said to them,'Where is your faith?' and they were afraid, and marveled, saying to one another,' Who can this be? For He commands even the winds and water, and they obey Him!'

The devil has to yield to Jesus. Satan is a created being. Jesus is the creator. Satan is at best, a dog on a leash.

Pray that you will find Jesus in these times of winds and waves and know that He is in control. Jesus wants us to forever settle in our hearts, no matter how hard it gets, no matter how challenging it gets, no matter how much blood and sweat exudes from your body, make no mistake. Jesus is in control. Feelings come. Feelings are deceiving. They come and they go. My warrant is the word of God. None else is worth believing.

so put your faith in Jesus. no matter how high these waves are, the time will come for the waves to cease.


it is a good journey.

i never thought that i would say this. but honestly, the past few days have been traumatic to say the least, but i am glad that it is happening.

i haven't been sleeping well. i could go for days without eating anything. even when i do eat, it was a pathetic amount. in front of my parents, i lied that i was eating well and i even pretended that there was nothing wrong. but you just have to take one look at me and know that i wasn't myself. it was like someone knocked the life out of me.

but God is good. Once i start turning my eyes to Him, relying on him, feeding on his words, I feel this peace within me that i have never felt before. i won't say that i have recovered fully because honestly I still suffer from panic attacks whenever i wake up. that plus several times throughout the day. but the thing is, everytime i seek Him, my heart is protected from all pain. and because i know that Jesus is with me comforting me, i don't feel all that alone. He has shown me that my faith is enough to sustain me. He is my rock. and for that, i am thankful.

I would say that God gave me the strength to love despite all the pain, because somehow despite everything, i still believe in him.


thus my heart was grieved,
and i was vexed in my mind.
i was so foolish and ignorant;
i was like a beast before You.
Nevertheless I am continually with You.
You hold me by my right hand
You will guide me with Your counsel,
and afterward receive me to glory.

Whom have I in heaven but You?
And there is none upon earth that i desire besides You.

My flesh and my heart may fail;
But God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever.


Oh my goodness I am very tramustised!!!!!!!!!!!


Tonight is officially my most traumatized night.in a bid to get our minds off school, my dearest woeilin decided to watch piranha with me:)There is honestly no better way to distract yourself than a gory b-list movie. You should have seen our faces at the end of the movie! We were pale and speechless. Oh my goodness I am so traumatized!!!!!!! This is ten thousand times worse than final destination!!!! Please watch piranha, I would like to share my trauma. Not going to swim ever.

the way out of your wilderness is to speak. it is not enough to believe. speak over yourself.

I AM

more than a conqueror in Christ.
amen.


monday, please be kind :)


I LOVE JASLYN WONG JIEXIN TO DEATH!!!! ♥♥♥♥♥


today is mad busy day but i like it :) fresh start babeh.

only negative thought today: weather is damn bad


talking to jinglin  makes me feel that i am not alone in my loss of sanity. we are all on the direct path to self destruction and the source of the problem is school.

i am sorry.


it's not easy when no one understands what you are going through. how do you describe a million shattering heartbreaks? life and love breaks you. i have to accept that?


i am a tampon convert.


"It is truly special to be seen. I mean really seen. Seen as in noticed, picked out from a crowd, observed, arresting the full attention of that special someone. Not in a creepy, stalker- like way, but in a way that says, " I'm entirely mesmerised by you because you are stunning." I would like to say that, unabashedly, that I mesmerise Jesus. I know this because He bothers to show me that He sees and that He is, in fact, in love with me.

Why this desire to be seen? For that, perhaps we should look at the converse experience of being overlooked. To be forgotten or ignored is possibly one of the most painful things a girl can experience, and it rings true for myself. It is automatically translated into "I didn't make that cut, my flaws showed up, I'm not as pretty, smart, or as cool as her." Then coresponding feelings arise. Namely, feelings of worthlessness and ugliness steal their way into my consciousness, and I begin to doubt myself.

But If i were to be honest with myself, these feelings only arise when I start looking at my own humanity, and not at Christ. The moment I re-focus my eyes on Jesus and know that He is my worth, peace returns.

Once, He brought me to Psalm 32:8, " I will instruct you and teach you in the way you should go; I will guide you with My eye." This puzzled me. How could He guide me with His eye? Does this mean blink once to go left , blink twice to go right? Then He showed me that in order to be guided by someone's eye, you have to be gazing right back. so as long as I maintain proverbial eye contact with my Jesus, all will be well in my world.

It is difficult to sum up my relationship with this marvelous Man, because to say that He loves me is such an understatement. He is everything to me and, I dare say, He reciprocates the sentiment, he saw me before the world ever was and He loved me with His life at the cross. "

Source: the Zone youth magazine issue 03, p 07.

the highlight to an otherwise horrible night♥ :)

ok back to work


my mum gives me money every time i am upset. i suspect she is a firm believer of 'money can buy you happiness'. she is not completely wrong you know


i don't think i have said this, in fact i have always said the contrary, but last night, i realised how much my mum loves me. i had a terrible headache from all that crying, so she stayed up with me trying to massage my head, dry my tears and tell me how everything was going to be alright. i vomited thrice last night and each time, she was there to hold my hair back. somehow she made everything just a little better. i love my mum.


half of my heart's got a real good imagination
half of my heart's got you
half of my hearts's got a right mind to tell you
that half of my heart won't do


death by dissertation and projects.


een nah has a strange therapeutic effect on me.


'who the hell is the one who is running away from her own problems?'

and there it was.

 yet sometimes, despite what we may want, the door just has too many locks
-gossip girl

TIRED AND STRESSED.


Blair: You should have told me you were shot.
Chuck: I'm surprised you didn't shoot me yourself.
Blair: I have. Many times, in my dreams. The good ones.


this heart is suppressing its hate, hurt and distrust


austin brown

he does honestly sound a little like his uncle, Michael Jackson.


thank God for favour! tomorrow is the long awaited Khoo Teck Puat hospital sit down with the director and his other collegues. there's going to be so many of them there, it's like a party. i will not buckle under pressure (hopefully).my dissertation will be so impressive, they will want to hire me.

in other news, back is aching.


you cannot exercise the choice, but don't expect the consequences

rejoicing in hope, patient in tribulation, continuing steadfastly in prayer;

possibly the hardest weekend to go through in my 22 years of life. but God is good. may all my troubles be stepping stones to where God wants me to be.


i think i can understand why people would want to hurt themselves. the pain in your heart renders any physical pain insignificant. you barely feel anything. but you still keep trying, hoping that at some point, the pain distracts and makes you momentarily alive.

one does not hurt themselves to grasp the feeling of death but instead they are fighting to feel alive again.


swallow me whole, i don't care anymore.


worst panty liners in the world wide world.


it took me a ginormous amount of sheer willpower not to head down to buy supper.
macdonalds, better luck next time!

it never fails to amaze me how he's always listening. even when i am complaining and i think the whole world is ignoring me. he was listening. and he always goes and fix my problem like a ninja.

how subtle is his love♥



this screams happy halloween






for them, i would scrub soles and remove cuticles even if i pay someone to do my own nails.


my only hope is that my love is enough.


'do you realise how well you were brought up?'

i didn't, but i realise that now, thanks jas:)♥


William: I live in Notting Hill. You live in Beverly Hills. Everyone in the world knows who you are, my mother has trouble remembering my name.
Anna Scott: I'm also just a girl, standing in front of a boy, asking him to love her.


i woke up before i was horribly killed by a knife in a final destination-themed nightmare. i got to stop having highly violent dreams. moving on to non-violent events, the person who interviewed me today looked disturbingly like jade seah. i swear i almost asked her if they were related. oh and daniel gave me one great advice today,

you need to stop taking him seriously.

INDEED.

JJQCA SLEEPOVER WUHOOOOOOO


God works in mysterious ways (:
it's humbling to share about how much God loves us.

JANICE MY HAPPY BIRD, WHEELS ON THE BUS GO ROUND AND ROUND!♥


my heart aches. but i have a Great God. i put my trust in Him.


somehow i have this mental picture of the three of us laughing while walking each other down the aisle :)


it's fate, it's tragedy


one reason why i shouldn't cook: i really suck at it.


LISTENING TO THE SAME SERMON OVER AND OVER AGAIN IS A GREAT WAY TO START THE DAY :) ♥


i know what you are going through. trust me i have been there.

you have?

yea

i don't think you know the whole story


yea i do.

you have been there?


yea.

really?


yes

are you mad at me?


nope. I love you.

well, do you think what i did was wrong?


absolutely.

was it sin?

yep, it's what put Jesus on the cross.

whatever you obsess over, you are magnetically drawn to and doomed to repeat.

stop obsessing. shoot i am doing it again.


what is fear? it is just a lie. it cannot do anything to you.

don't live in your mind


Above all else, guard your heart, for it is the wellspring of life. -Proverbs 4:23
 




swamped by babies at grandma's birthday dinner tonight. she's my favourite:)

A real man of God will protect his partner. That means he is willing to lay down his very own life, needs and wants for the protection of the one he loves. Every decision he makes when it comes to a relationship has her protection in mind. A woman needs to feel secure, that she is protected and safe with her man. She doesn’t need to second guess, wonder if she will be okay, or have her heart and mind played with. A real man of God will not only protect his woman physically, but also mentally, emotionally and spiritually. He always has the highest good in his mind for her safety, well being and wholeness.

'you are too much, and not enough, you are just not worth the effort.'

if anyone ever make you feel that way, then he's not worth your heart.
it is a joy instead to bask in God's love:)


there are elements that are out of your control in life, and those elements are much more hurtful and much more painful and because they hit so close to home and they are so real, often times we seek to try to fix it or control it in our strength, even though we are incapable. we do not have the power or the resource to control these elements. they are bigger than us, they are larger than us, we can't control what people do or say, or the injustice of life. it was not your fault, these are elements that are outside of your control. but just because they are outside of your control doesn't mean that they still don't hurt.

and because they hurt so bad and we don't want them to happen again to us, we seek to control these elements that we don't even have the resource, the ability or the capacity to control. and often times, we exert so much energy, strength and stamina that we find ourselves at the verge of exhaustion because we are incapable of fixing these elements and in some cases, problems. it is an endless cycle.

i know it hurts, but it is outside of your control. these elements can actually drive us to the right place and to the right person.

mark 6:45 Jesus urged his disciples to get into the boat. Jesus is God. Even though he knew there was a storm brewing, he puts them on the boat anyway.

why?

It is good for us.

But know this, Jesus will always save us, he will always deliver us, sometimes not from things but through things.

his glory, his splendour, his majesty and his beauty often times is revealed in the winds and waves of life. the winds and the waves drive you to him, and for that you should be grateful for life's complexities, curveballs, challenges and elements that are outside of your control because they seem to perpetually drive you back to your source and saviour, Jesus Christ.

some of you were called in the calm. but now the calm has turned into chaos and you wonder if you are still called. the truth is you are more called than you have ever been. and there comes a resolution to your calling, when your calling goes from the calm to the chaotic storm of life and then you realise that if you can stay calm and be who God called you to be, in the midst of this chaotic storm, you can make it through anything.

at the end of the hell down there, there is a heaven. just keep going forward, do not be fooled into backsliding.

one thing about challenges and storms, Jesus always sees you.

Jesus puts us in the boat, not because He wants to see if we can handle it. He puts us in the boat, because he knows no matter what, He's in control. We may freak out and lose our minds, but He will be there when we need Him. He will watch us every step of the way and we will be better, stronger and we will love and trust Him more at the end of this day. if Jesus put you in that boat, that boat will not capsize. it might feel like it's going to capsize, you might get seasick, vomitting all over the side of the boat, but if He says you will get to somewhere, come hell or high waters, you will get there.

do not trip, do not freak, do not abandon ship, You are not alone. it happens to the best of us, even to the apostles. these are the men destined for greatness, yet they too are being tossed by the waves.

matthew 14:27 But immediately Jesus spoke to them, saying,'Be of good cheer! It is I; do not be afraid.'

admist all of the horrendous upheaval, Jesus was now walking on the water, which should give them some peace. He had to speak up, because he was speaking that through the loud winds and the waves. as He's saying that, you are still up against the wall. This is a challenge of our faith. He says, 'Be of good cheer' and there is still chaos. Jesus says 'do not be afraid, be happy!' Many a times, people think that they will only be of good cheer if Jesus fixes the problem. But, Jesus is on top of what is harrassing you, so no matter how long this thing last, Jesus is on top of it. Know one thing. This pain will not last and you will get to where you were called to. you are going to make it.

you can be going through something and yet you are happy. not because you are in denial. yes, the waves are big and you can't even stand in this wind. but when you look to Jesus, you will see that He's walking on your circumstances and He is in control and no matter what, you are going to make it through. This doesn't mean that it is not going to be painful, it is. but this is out of your control and if it is out of your control, then you got to turn to somebody who can control the elements.

Luke 8:25 But He said to them,'Where is your faith?' and they were afraid, and marveled, saying to one another,' Who can this be? For He commands even the winds and water, and they obey Him!'

The devil has to yield to Jesus. Satan is a created being. Jesus is the creator. Satan is at best, a dog on a leash.

Pray that you will find Jesus in these times of winds and waves and know that He is in control. Jesus wants us to forever settle in our hearts, no matter how hard it gets, no matter how challenging it gets, no matter how much blood and sweat exudes from your body, make no mistake. Jesus is in control. Feelings come. Feelings are deceiving. They come and they go. My warrant is the word of God. None else is worth believing.

so put your faith in Jesus. no matter how high these waves are, the time will come for the waves to cease.


it is a good journey.

i never thought that i would say this. but honestly, the past few days have been traumatic to say the least, but i am glad that it is happening.

i haven't been sleeping well. i could go for days without eating anything. even when i do eat, it was a pathetic amount. in front of my parents, i lied that i was eating well and i even pretended that there was nothing wrong. but you just have to take one look at me and know that i wasn't myself. it was like someone knocked the life out of me.

but God is good. Once i start turning my eyes to Him, relying on him, feeding on his words, I feel this peace within me that i have never felt before. i won't say that i have recovered fully because honestly I still suffer from panic attacks whenever i wake up. that plus several times throughout the day. but the thing is, everytime i seek Him, my heart is protected from all pain. and because i know that Jesus is with me comforting me, i don't feel all that alone. He has shown me that my faith is enough to sustain me. He is my rock. and for that, i am thankful.

I would say that God gave me the strength to love despite all the pain, because somehow despite everything, i still believe in him.


thus my heart was grieved,
and i was vexed in my mind.
i was so foolish and ignorant;
i was like a beast before You.
Nevertheless I am continually with You.
You hold me by my right hand
You will guide me with Your counsel,
and afterward receive me to glory.

Whom have I in heaven but You?
And there is none upon earth that i desire besides You.

My flesh and my heart may fail;
But God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever.


Oh my goodness I am very tramustised!!!!!!!!!!!


Tonight is officially my most traumatized night.in a bid to get our minds off school, my dearest woeilin decided to watch piranha with me:)There is honestly no better way to distract yourself than a gory b-list movie. You should have seen our faces at the end of the movie! We were pale and speechless. Oh my goodness I am so traumatized!!!!!!! This is ten thousand times worse than final destination!!!! Please watch piranha, I would like to share my trauma. Not going to swim ever.

the way out of your wilderness is to speak. it is not enough to believe. speak over yourself.

I AM

more than a conqueror in Christ.
amen.


monday, please be kind :)


I LOVE JASLYN WONG JIEXIN TO DEATH!!!! ♥♥♥♥♥


today is mad busy day but i like it :) fresh start babeh.

only negative thought today: weather is damn bad


talking to jinglin  makes me feel that i am not alone in my loss of sanity. we are all on the direct path to self destruction and the source of the problem is school.

i am sorry.


it's not easy when no one understands what you are going through. how do you describe a million shattering heartbreaks? life and love breaks you. i have to accept that?


i am a tampon convert.


"It is truly special to be seen. I mean really seen. Seen as in noticed, picked out from a crowd, observed, arresting the full attention of that special someone. Not in a creepy, stalker- like way, but in a way that says, " I'm entirely mesmerised by you because you are stunning." I would like to say that, unabashedly, that I mesmerise Jesus. I know this because He bothers to show me that He sees and that He is, in fact, in love with me.

Why this desire to be seen? For that, perhaps we should look at the converse experience of being overlooked. To be forgotten or ignored is possibly one of the most painful things a girl can experience, and it rings true for myself. It is automatically translated into "I didn't make that cut, my flaws showed up, I'm not as pretty, smart, or as cool as her." Then coresponding feelings arise. Namely, feelings of worthlessness and ugliness steal their way into my consciousness, and I begin to doubt myself.

But If i were to be honest with myself, these feelings only arise when I start looking at my own humanity, and not at Christ. The moment I re-focus my eyes on Jesus and know that He is my worth, peace returns.

Once, He brought me to Psalm 32:8, " I will instruct you and teach you in the way you should go; I will guide you with My eye." This puzzled me. How could He guide me with His eye? Does this mean blink once to go left , blink twice to go right? Then He showed me that in order to be guided by someone's eye, you have to be gazing right back. so as long as I maintain proverbial eye contact with my Jesus, all will be well in my world.

It is difficult to sum up my relationship with this marvelous Man, because to say that He loves me is such an understatement. He is everything to me and, I dare say, He reciprocates the sentiment, he saw me before the world ever was and He loved me with His life at the cross. "

Source: the Zone youth magazine issue 03, p 07.

the highlight to an otherwise horrible night♥ :)

ok back to work


my mum gives me money every time i am upset. i suspect she is a firm believer of 'money can buy you happiness'. she is not completely wrong you know


i don't think i have said this, in fact i have always said the contrary, but last night, i realised how much my mum loves me. i had a terrible headache from all that crying, so she stayed up with me trying to massage my head, dry my tears and tell me how everything was going to be alright. i vomited thrice last night and each time, she was there to hold my hair back. somehow she made everything just a little better. i love my mum.


half of my heart's got a real good imagination
half of my heart's got you
half of my hearts's got a right mind to tell you
that half of my heart won't do


death by dissertation and projects.


een nah has a strange therapeutic effect on me.


'who the hell is the one who is running away from her own problems?'

and there it was.

 yet sometimes, despite what we may want, the door just has too many locks
-gossip girl

TIRED AND STRESSED.


Blair: You should have told me you were shot.
Chuck: I'm surprised you didn't shoot me yourself.
Blair: I have. Many times, in my dreams. The good ones.


this heart is suppressing its hate, hurt and distrust


austin brown

he does honestly sound a little like his uncle, Michael Jackson.


thank God for favour! tomorrow is the long awaited Khoo Teck Puat hospital sit down with the director and his other collegues. there's going to be so many of them there, it's like a party. i will not buckle under pressure (hopefully).my dissertation will be so impressive, they will want to hire me.

in other news, back is aching.


you cannot exercise the choice, but don't expect the consequences

rejoicing in hope, patient in tribulation, continuing steadfastly in prayer;

possibly the hardest weekend to go through in my 22 years of life. but God is good. may all my troubles be stepping stones to where God wants me to be.


i think i can understand why people would want to hurt themselves. the pain in your heart renders any physical pain insignificant. you barely feel anything. but you still keep trying, hoping that at some point, the pain distracts and makes you momentarily alive.

one does not hurt themselves to grasp the feeling of death but instead they are fighting to feel alive again.


swallow me whole, i don't care anymore.


worst panty liners in the world wide world.


it took me a ginormous amount of sheer willpower not to head down to buy supper.
macdonalds, better luck next time!

chiewyee!
basically what we have here is a dreamer. someone out of touch with reality. when she jumped, she probably thought she'd fly.
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MOVED!i have finally succumbed to tumblr! please s... it is always a cultural experience to visit jingli... this is how lunlun sees me. even i have to admit, ... don't you just love lucas. haha! today shall be a happy day with janice in town and... respect and honour. i can't emphasise enough for we were saved in this hope, but hope that is s... you don't have to take yourself seriously, but tak...

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