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Friday, July 28, 2006 @ 5:10 PM
what's left of me is what i pretend to be i feel like screaming and crying at the same time i screwed up. big time it isn't a crime to want a little space to breathe i want to be alone i crave the loneliness i want everyone to look away i hate it when people see me breaking apart these two days have been such an emotional rollercoaster i want out out of this life i don't appreciate people spreading whatever secrets i told them i trusted them now i feel like i shouldn't trust anyone at all. you realise it would always come back to me? i am appalled at how you twisted the truth into something i don't even recognise. fine. do what you want i can't control what you say anyway i don't care what you think of me i'm sick of people thinking i am so nice that they just step all over me what do you expect me to do? something's bothering me but i just can't pinpoint what exactly it is i want my heart to stop crying i want to stop acting happy i want to be truly happy there's a million things going through my head this particular moment its making me confused i feel terrible i keep asking myself- am i asking too much? how is that even possible i just wish my life is easier the first thing i did when i reached home was to blast the music untie my hair and scream in the bathroom i hoped i didn't scare my neighbours seriously. make me happy again. just once i wish i had the power to know what people are thinking. if i had to lose my voice to get that i would gladly surrender being mute sure beats being clueless and lost |
