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Saturday, January 31, 2009 @ 3:22 PM
stars in your eyes                                         so it's been a month from my 21st birthday party and finally i feel the need to blog about it. to say that it has been the most memorable birthday would be an understatement. certainly memorable in more ways than one. there was so much love and sadness at the same time. love because i knew that my friends are so incredible. i never expected them to go through so much effort to dress up in the wacky costumes that they did. and i certainly never expected them to have my back no matter what. it was a difficult night for me but i never once felt alone because i knew, behind the scenes my friends were doing all they could to make things right. i must say there were at least two times when i almost lost it. but the important thing was i held it in. and i am sorry to jaslyn and piaky who were trying to comfort me but i shrugged them off. i knew if i allowed myself to be comforted i will crumble. and then there will be no turning back. i would like to think i grew strong after all that. there are many many people to thank. xinyu for being the most amazing friend who is ALWAYS there to listen. wanzi for being the most protective friend qiling for feeding me with gossip and never failing to cheer me up weilun for being himself, funny and silly. daniel for TOTALLY knowing the situation and giving great advice weihui for being such a sweetie piaky for being such a dear friend even though we don't meet each other much zhimin for being my servant that day, buying this and that for me cindy for being the greatest long distance friend ever. ps: I LOVE YOUR AUDREY HEPBURN LOOK THAT NIGHT :D totally gorgeous jaslyn for being so cute that even my cousin thought you were the prettiest that night. and of course for assuring me all the time :) jin jen for doing the birthday card with one particular bikini photo that got into my mum's hand and she showed it to my relatives! haha and for cracking me up when i least expect it mavis for being the most creative. awesome work on the greek costume! and of course for being there all the way till the next day. yanru for donning the greek costume! you have been a great friend throughout the years :) su sian, jiahan, alycia and liting for heading down to the party even though you guys didn't really know anyone there. my fantastic childcare centre collegues for being so sporty and fun! jinglin and shiying for being my closest university friends. all the fun during lectures:D and all those who couldn't make it but still send their love, THANKS :) Thursday, January 29, 2009 @ 6:09 PM
whatever sometimes i can't decide if i am happy being who i am or that i am happy with changes. uncertainty used to prick me like a splinter but now i find myself being comfortable as such it's like we are both blissfully trying to ignore the problems and hopefully somehow it will go away i hate it that i can't say what's really on my mind sometimes. there are many versions of truth. it's mine against yours. but your version yesterday was a good one. i dislike planning down to the minute details but i hate the spontaneity more. simply because your spontaneity= indifference + impracticality i only start behaving in a weird way because you do when i don't know how to deal with something, i don't deal with it. why do i have to feel like i need to prove myself to you every time? i was secretly happy when we ordered the same thing at the same time. you might think i don't care but i do really. i am just afraid to show you that i do. all the highs and the lows are exhausting. i especially don't like the idea of having to fight for your time. and i am only writing this cause i know you wouldn't be reading this. Tuesday, January 27, 2009 @ 8:43 PM
chinese new year 09 mummy did not buy baw kua! how can one celebrate chinese new year without that?? how!? i saw an alarming number of people who turn up in red. there are BABIES everywhere. who said we aren't replacing ourselves? i made one baby cry. i was only saying he was cute yet he started crying. newly weds seem to be no where in sight while singles are everywhere. it just makes me wonder how many more years before it gets awkward for me to ask for an ang bao alr i am at the age where people keep asking me: "are you studying or working" usually they proceed with caution while asking this. god knows how many times i heard "omg you are so tall! why so tall?" i did not gamble at all. i feel cheated cause the holidays are not long enough. I HAVE A LECTURE AND TUTORIAL TML. did i mention my lecture is at 9ungodly am? i just read through this entry and i realise i sound very bitter. but that's entirely not the case! :) Tuesday, January 20, 2009 @ 12:54 PM
NO ONE ELSE it all started with a rather unglamorous act while we were eating on yes my part. the casual onlookers, TEO QILING and POH WEILUN, decided that it was terribly funny and started sniggering. to dismiss them, i said in a huff, " NO ONE saw that!" till this day, i live with the regret of saying that four words. just cause it brought about a storm of lame jokes and a band that doesn't have a song to their name. qiling: "i am NO! and you are ONE! hahahhahahahah" meanwhile, weilun laughs like a madman. i swear the two of them bonded like long lost evil stepsisters who just found out they could fit into Cinderella's shoes. so anyway they conveniently gave me the tag, ELSE therefore we have the birth of this rather silly band with no concrete fans and a rather warped sense of humour. presenting to you NO ONE ELSE! now scream you non-existent fans (the following are two videos made out of the same video that qiling took during one of our band outings) the first one is done by me. this next one is done by weilun. i am appalled with the result that totally aims to put me in a bad light. vote for your favourite video now!:) |
