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Sunday, August 05, 2007 @ 1:54 PM
i am complaining/ whining blah how am i supposed to know how to act/behave? who is to say that the way i am acting now is not me? now this is why i hate a new environment. adjusting means i have to find out who i really am. THAT i have yet to find out. i feel as if i am constantly changing, but somehow i'm still me, but i have changed(in one way or another). does that make sense? that's why i say old friends are still the best because they have already accepted you as who you are(whoever you are) and there's no pressure to please them. you don't have to try to think of something to say when you just feel like keeping quiet. you don't have to do things you don't like to do. and you know you can say what's on your mind, without worrying about what the person would think of you. Impression! that's it. why must we always work so hard at giving people a good impression of us? why do i find myself eager to let people have a good first impression of me, then feel defeated when i feel that they don't(have a good impression of me that is)? why can't people just slowly discover what's good/bad about me without me having to try? and why am i trying so hard when just be myself? if only it was that easy. i wonder what i was thinking when i decided to do something different. who am i kidding? i am not ready to be different. give me the old constant anytime. |
