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Friday, November 10, 2006 @ 11:45 AM
somehow i expected this period of A's to be different. i thought i would be calm and prepared for anything thrown my way i certainly never expected myself to come home from the first paper, dazed and feeling like a total wreck. and that phone call. it was like the whole world just came crashing down on me and i just sat there and cried times like this, you wonder what you have done wrong to deserve something as devasting as this the worst thing was the fact that you could not do anything about it. i desperately needed time to just sit there and think my grandpa was dying i wanted to be at the hospital but i could not be there i had to study i needed to but what you want and what you need can be so conflicting at times everytime i managed to calm myself down and actually started making some progress in my revision another call comes the constant reminders of my grandpa's situation was painful at that time, i told myself two more days and i would be at the hospital i just needed two more days my grandpa passed away yesterday when we were doing our maths paper two remember the heavy rain? the sky was crying i would too if i had known my mum said at least now my grandpa doesn't have to suffer he couldn't eat he couldn't talk and he was in constant pain death can be so cruel but yet merciful in a way. |
